Once it hits...

Through your words you ease them into a steady state of convulsion. You see it begin, and you cannot help but encourage it. They are locked up from laughter. You even follow them physically as they can no longer hold themselves upright against the need for air and the problems with getting it. It is a most joyful thing to participate in. Then you tickle them.

It will soon be twenty five of them had.

The thought that occurred to me as I ran the hair from the periphery of my nipples through my fingernails was just how people change. Choosing the next thought to speak. The events that change our lives. The events we use to change our lives. The things that are a long time coming, and still more to come. People do not stay the same. They are not always the son, and the parents are not always going to be able to label him the same. What is unceasing is change, and at times it is almost unnoticeable. Suddenly we can see deeper. This is to be hoped for. Sought after.

To carry the waking moment onward. It has a life of its own that we cannot dictate. It is up to us to realize. It is what helps us grow. Through torture, through struggle, through all matter of feeling.

Our thoughts are not random, blown apart, though they seem to be.

Don't miss the transformation going on right now.

It's going fast and furious, and sometimes it goes from bad to worse, but it never stops going up, up, up. It's past the time to wink the eye, it's almost time to cast the die, and it's getting very warm outside, we need some place to sleep.

A sprinter's stance and half-raised pants are all that stands between the doing and the being of what is necessary. I am glad I went with what I knew at the time. Things have a way of zig zagging and finding a way back to what was left behind.

It's all so available. It's all so ready. And it's going on right now in this very room. The place where I sleep, study, dream, make believe, grow, confront, allow and feel. It's all coming from a certain place. We must needs call its name.

I call it Alsonde Pronerndride.